It is hitting me how much people just don’t surprise me and how absolutely frustrating it is to me that I still manage to react strongly even when I can see what people will do a mile away.
If I can see, in my mind, the actions that each person in my life will take ahead of time then why do I still cry when they hurt me or get angry when they frustrate me? It’s draining. I guess I still hold on to hope that they will do the “right” thing or do the thing that makes sense or follow their heart. Maybe it’s good that I still have faith that people will not do the stupid thing in the end… but it definitely makes it that much more frustrating when they don’t.
Sometimes I wish I could just be surprised by people so maybe the pain and frustration could be a little shorter.
Don’t mean to complain. No one likes a complainer. I just needed to vent. I think it’s one of those things that has probably helped me more than it’s hurt me in life but right now it sucks:)
Happy Holidays:)