I’m not sure if I can eloquently say this, but has anyone noticed that the internet is finally showing America’s genuine concern with the welfare of other countries? And that the invention of social media has finally given the people the ability to speak to the rest of the world and show real support?

Of course, I’m talking about the recent Iran Elections. America has always relied on traditional media and the government to tell us what’s going on in the rest of the world. We always knew that it was filtered and biased but we now have the proof and can make our own decisions as to what’s important through the internet and things like Twitter (http://bit.ly/twitiran) and YouTube (http://bit.ly/YTiran). And not only that but we can communicate to the world our feelings and concern instead of looking like self-involved jerks. It’s amazing the outpouring of true concern and sympathy that has happened because of it.

So, do you think subsequently that America might also finally start looking better to the world now that the people can speak for themselves? I am excited to see what happens…

Please tell me what you think.

For all you computer geeks out there, I think I just figured out how to explain $love -> $you:

if ($boy + $girl = "attraction") {
$love = "true";
}

if ($love == "true") {

$sex = "good";
$sexNum > 0;
$sexualpositions = array();

//or
if ($loveForGirl == $loveForComputers && $loveForGirl == “blind”) {

$timeWithGirl = $timeWithGirl + 1;

$boysActivities = array(”samurai swords and misc computer parts in closet”, “less computer games”, “no internet porn”);

$girlsActivities = array(”learn binary”, “games and puzzles”, “internet memes”, “IM’ing”);
}

//or
while ($love != “false”) {

$happiness = “true”;
echo ” “;
}
} //this of course is an infinite loop:)

}

?>

Now go 01100110 01110101 01100011 01101011 your brains out;)

Isn’t it interesting how we are all so different? Even if we are born to the same parents and basically grow up in the same environment, we still seem to have our own unique personalities. Nothing makes this more clear than when we have kids.

For example, I have 2 boys, 4 and 6 that are two totally different people.

My 4-year-old smiles all the time and has a strong funny personality. He is more cautious when it comes to people, but once he gets to know them, if he likes them, he is a very affectionate, sweet loving child. Whereas, my 6-year-old is quick to trust people but is not quite as affectionate. He’s more open and friendly to people but I think it’s because he’s very inquisitive and curious and always trying to figure everything out.

Both of them are extremely smart but in different ways. My 6-year-old attends an accelerated school and at times is even too advanced for that. People would call him, “book” smart. On the other hand, my 4-year-old is more, “street” smart. Even though he is the younger brother, he has always been able to push his older brother’s buttons. He knows exactly what to say and do to either bother his brother or make him laugh. It’s funny watching the two of them interact sometimes. (Although, if you take my 4-year-old to the zoo, he instantly becomes even more inquisitive than his brother.)

If our family were a business, I think my 4-year-old would be the face of the company that interacts with all the clients and my 6-year-old would be the genius that invents the product and runs the company.

I can’t wait to see what and who they become. I just hope I can nurture and cultivate their unique personalities so they become the best they can be:)

Ever since I’ve nurtured for me and faced my pain head on and been honest with all of my feelings, I’ve found I grow more and more everyday.

What a reward:)

No matter how different we all grow up or who or what we all become, I still believe there’s no greater feeling than the feeling of being loved.

There’s nothing as warm or fulfilling or precious as that.

I wish everyone the ability and the privilege of having that feeling as much as possible in their lives. And please always cherish it whenever you can. It doesn’t happen everyday

I’m reading The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle and found this interesting…

“Are you always trying to get somewhere other than where you are? Is most of your doing just a means to an end? Is fulfillment always just around the corner? … Are you always focused on becoming, achieving, and attaining? Do you believe that if you acquire more things you will become more fulfilled, good enough or psychologically complete?
…
In the normal, mind-identified or unenlightened state of consciousness, the power and infinite creative potential that lie concealed in the Now are completely obscured by psychological time. Your life loses its vibrancy, its freshness, its sense of wonder. The old patterns of thought, emotion, behavior, reaction, and desire are acted out in endless repeat performances, a script in your mind that gives you an identity of sorts but distorts or covers up the reality of the Now. The mind then creates an obsession with the future as an escape from the unsatisfactory present.
…
So the only place where true change can occur and where the past can be dissolved is the Now.”

It seems we have all been conditioned to think the future will bring happiness and that makes it ok to be miserable now. To be truly happy, we need to learn to be happy now because our lives are always right now.

“There is never a time when your life is not ‘this moment.’”

So, I took some time off of writing my book because I just didn’t feel like it was going the direction I wanted it to go. It was beginning to feel like rambling and disconnected thoughts.

I knew if I took a little the time to think and gather my thoughts that I could figure out exactly what I wanted to say in a more precise and helpful way. And if I would have continued my misdirected babbling, it would have been harder in the end to edit it down to make any sense.

Good news is that it worked. Over the past week or so, I have been able to chip away at my ideas and am down to the overall message I want to communicate and I’ve already started writing… better:)

So, being single really gives you time to do some some deep introspection. This week in particular was a big week for me in that arena.

Basically, ever since my parents divorced, I developed a fear of rejection. So, as a result, I am always concerned about whether everyone around me is happy above my own happiness. That combined with the fact that I am hypersensitive makes me do all kinds of stupid stuff to ‘prevent’ them from rejecting me including changing myself, putting up with other people’s behavior I can’t stand, neglecting my own needs, letting other people’s emotions control my own and appearing ‘needy.’ (annoying)

The cool thing is that this week I also turned a corner. Even though I knew this about myself before, I couldn’t shake this fear but now it seems to have dissipated. I feel like I’ve finally made it over some hump and I finally care more about what makes me happy and what I want in life more than what everyone else wants. I am no longer so afraid of rejection and that crappy feeling is gone. It’s an amazing feeling to let go of fear.

Now, I’m not stupid. I realize this is easy to say when I’m not in a relationship because no one is around for me to worry about. But it is actually a big step for me because I really feel free of that anxiety in my life. Now the thing I need to do is stay right here for a while so it can really sink in. So, I can really learn to think of myself first. I’ve never done that. I’m not sure how long it will take to really learn it but I know if I go into a relationship now, I can easily slip back into my old ways too easy. And I need it to stick for future relationships… (that’s what she said)

The good news is that it feels really good. A lot like “happy.” It feels natural and a lot better than the way I was. I know this is who I am deep down and that my unhealthy behavior was a result of my environment. I also know I’m on the right track and I know it will stick if I can just have a little self-control.

If any of that makes any sense…:)

Life needs to be a little nuts and unpredictable. Otherwise it’s a bunch of Thursdays all strung together.

I think women are conditioned to think they are not whole until they find that ’someone special.’

Be complete.

You do not need anyone to complete you. You want someone in your life because spending time with them enhances your already complete life.

Complete yourself:)